Should i (?)

Hallo there.

sorry if i was wrote this with very bad english, 'cause i'm little tired right now

I know it's not a right time to tell ya about this, but it seriously harm my mind.

Few weeks ago (maybe i should say few days ago), i just remember my old friend. It was not too old because i just knew her for 3 or 4 years, but it does't matter.

I remember her because something reminds me about her. Some incredible dream was harmed my sleep.

Yap it was a dream, just a dream. It just a joy in our sleep. But isn't weird if they was looped for few days with same dream ?

No, it wasn't a 'wet-dream' or something porn, LOL! it just something unusual. I never felt like this before.

i just feel that was real, but i know it wasn't for me (and obviously never).

Yap, i know i have liked her for sometime, and in that period i never say anything like 'suki-desu' to her. And until now, i really don't know why i can't tell her about that. LOL!

I never say to her maybe because she's not alone at the time, and i know that she still not alone right now. But, did it will be forever ? I don't know.

With a strange dream that harmed me, i just think, should i propose to marry her 2 years from now if in that time she still an unmarry girl (?)

I think it was crazy plan. But, deep in my mind, i just think that i should do that 2 years from now. Whatever the risk.

Why (?)

I just think that for her, i can do it 2 years from now. Why not (?). I don't really care. She knowed me like a family and i really do the same.

Ohyea, I know that!  It's out of my plan to get marry in 5 years from now, but i must get ready if that chance is coming. For her it will be nothing.

Sorry if i was bothering you to waste your quality time to read this LOL

it does't matter anymore

goodnight